tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5835990102340373468.post3480916278300678763..comments2021-12-29T22:50:45.891-05:00Comments on A Reason to Live...: I am losing itJillhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06163962594434709570noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5835990102340373468.post-28500418202989126962010-04-15T15:15:24.203-04:002010-04-15T15:15:24.203-04:00Thank you ladies. Yes, even when I have been (very...Thank you ladies. Yes, even when I have been (very few times) because I just havent been out of the house much lately or cared to go in stores, but when I have came across Mother day cards I just like cringe and get a sick feeling, even in my situation, I just remember when my mom/dad got me flowers for mothers day, and in a card said that Naomi owes my dad money for the flowers "as a joke". I happened to glance at those cards that night too. I havent even picked up my mom a mothers day card yet! eeks. I was too busy thinking and feeling sorry for myself and others going through my same thing.<br />And *Belle* I am so sorry you had your breakdown as well. Even when I see baby shower cards, or anything related, I just feel so sad because I go back to when I had Naomi, or was pregnant with her. EVERYTHING SEEMED SO PERFECT AS IF NOTHING COULD GO WRONG. I also have some preeclampsia brochures left in the car that I still needa hand out, and being that both my mom and I had it (she was more full term & had it with me, her first pregnancy), I dont know if I should hand one to my sister or not, or she will think that I think she may get it. I dont know. Or I will just stay quiet and let her be. I found out last night she is having her baby shower in June, (the month Naomi passed away) and at my parents house where I am staying. Ive never been to a baby shower before, I always shoot them down. Now for my own sisters, I dont know what I am going to do.Jillhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06163962594434709570noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5835990102340373468.post-64456219296128363582010-04-14T14:04:14.663-04:002010-04-14T14:04:14.663-04:00I am sorry you are going through all of this. It&#...I am sorry you are going through all of this. It's hard and feeling what you are feeling is completely normal. <br />As for your sister, I am sure she understands your feelings. Just don't hold it against her, I am sure she never wanted this for you. Talk to her and explain your feelings, she needs to know what you are feeling, you are not upset with her or the baby. This world has a cruel way of doing things and unfortunately you and I are no exception to the rule. Life is hard, life without your baby is even harder. I understand you, ((HUGS)).Lisettehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06486760107232191431noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5835990102340373468.post-1942411805025963612010-04-14T10:49:30.205-04:002010-04-14T10:49:30.205-04:00This is such a hard thing. The only advice I can g...This is such a hard thing. The only advice I can give you is to do and feel what your heart tells you. You are grieving and it's ok to feel the way you are. As for your sister being pregnant. It's ok to be upset. Just make sure you let her know you love her and are just trying to work through your feelings. It has nothing to do with her baby. I hope things can look up for you quickly. This is so hard!!!<br /><br />((HUGS))Michellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02466314202781292317noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5835990102340373468.post-30946009392668754062010-04-14T09:55:36.871-04:002010-04-14T09:55:36.871-04:00Oh JIll i'm so sorry, I had a breakdown yester...Oh JIll i'm so sorry, I had a breakdown yesterday i was home alone though just me and the dog, When Dave came home I had to suck it up b/c i didn't want him knowing what is going on. But what started my breakdown was shopping for a mothers day card for my mom, needless to say i didn't buy one just came home and cried for hours. what i'm trying to say it's ok to act like you do we lost our babies and know one knows our pain but other like us. ((((HUGS))) and i'm sure what ever you do for Naomi's birthday she will be proud.*Belle*https://www.blogger.com/profile/01719923574914492516noreply@blogger.com