A check up & other misc!

It's 2:17 in the wee hours of the night. I have to be up at 6 am to get ready for class and leave at 7. Lovely. I never have this problem not being able to sleep. Ugh! So what better way to spend my hours awaken blogging! I've been putting it off and putting it off too long now!

So I guess I should update you all on my Sadie girl! Just last Friday we went for her shots because prior to that Friday, a week ago from it, at her 12 month check up she was sick with a cold and they suggested as well as I to wait on shots until she clears up a bit. We found out she is 16.4 lbs! Tiny but mighty that's for sure. Shes just a petite little thing-like her mother, or so I wish I were smaller! ;). They said she is moving up slowly on her growth chart was 3% now 5%. I am worried I know she was preemie a late term one, and they say they catch up at 2, I just hope she does! Dr said she SHPULD be sleeping through the night by now . hahah NOPE. Hasn't since newborn, well okay I can couture 6 times on my fingers that she has. Not enough! I need to figure out what I am doing wrong! Also asked how many words she can say. I couldn't think and right then and there being on the spot I said two. They said she should be saying 3-5. Ah as I was driving home I was going over in my head the words she can say, and definitely was 3-5 range. Oops. So I feel like I better tell them just so they can change that in her chart! Otherwise she is doing pretty good! Made mama proud!

This weekend on Saturday we attended her first Halloween party- BYOP wanna take a guess at the name?? Bring Your Own Pumpkin! Was a great idea huh?! All the little ones brought their pumpkins and they decorated them with feathers and silly eyes and paint and stuff. . My good friend Holly hosted the party. She is an absolute fanatic of Halloween! Her sister made the dessert table and OMG I lingered by that table all night! The house was decorated so cute and had Halloween music playing. Great food and company! Everyone adores Sadie. She seemed to be the life of the party. She would have kept going had I let her, but it was time for "kitty" to head to head home for bed! Her costume was a tad big but it worked! I drew whiskers on with my eyeliner, not the best she would NOT stay still ha. And painted a little mosey on her! She was NOT having her ears, so figures! But I might say she looked mighty purr-Ty!

What are you all dressing up as for ballpark? What are your little ones being?! I wish I had more of a creative Side ! I thought I could have been Ariel and Sadie could be flounder last minute before party! Mama went as a 60's girl! Everyone loved the costume !















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A late birthday post and then some'

It has been too long since I last posted! I had "blogging" on my to do list, and well you know how the old saying goes "tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow". I put it off way too long and I apologize!

Last I posted was on the eve of my sweet little girls BIRTHDAY! How in the world could it be a year already? In the blink of an eye is an understatement I say.

The party couldn't have gone better. We had the party at my parents house, where I am living (one fine day, one fine day my friend keeps telling me, I will be out on my own, gotta keep chugging along until then!). A lot of my friends showed up that I hadn't seen some since highschool or some it just has been some time! We had lots of yummy food some made, some from Sam's. Oh! Let me back up a minute!

THE CUPCAKES. Yes the cupcakes. Oh my. So the morning of Sadie's birthday I went to my best friends house around 9, thinking oh I will be out by noon. Boy, was I wrong. We had planned to make 3 dozen cupcakes. We found such a perfect recipe, I wanted rainbow cupcakes since she was my "rainbow baby" after all. We ran to the store got last minute ingredients, grabbed breakfast and were off to make and bake! We made the batter and divided it into 5 bowls. Then we used food coloring for each layer. We then started one by one to layer the colors. It was VERY time consuming. We started out using a spoon to layer blue first. Before this we tested two, blue on bottom on one cupcake and red on bottom on the other to see which looked best. The red on top was the winner! So we started layering blue but just in one cupcake then green and so on but you had to be very careful not to mix the colors and spread it. I was having such a hard time I wanted to give up. Finally we thought, why don't we layer all blue on each dirt obsess of going by one cupcake. Duh. That made it a little faster. The way we were going I looked at time was about almost NOON! I thought let me call my friend to see if she can come over to help. She came to the rescue and by golly, what an idea she had. We made "pastry" bags instead of going by tiny spoonfuls to layer the cupcakes. It went by SO much faster. I don't know how we didn't think of that before. We decided on making 24 instead and I decided I'd pick up a thing from Publix. Time was of the essence and we still had to do the frosting! Well we finally got them done and I was out of there at THREE! I had to rush home to Sadie and get showered and ready for the party!

Thank god for my parents and grandma. They decorated beautiful. I really wish I could had gone overboard and done more and hired someone but I unfortunately don't have those kinds of funds. Maybe next birthday party! It was nice to see friends and family. Sadie was such a hit of the party! She was too funny to watch and was dancing and kept following my friends nephew around and stared him down. It was then time for Happy Birthday! I put her in her high chair and gave her her own big cupcake we made especially loaded frosting for her. We all sang and I got teary eyed because I kept thinking of Naomi and how she isn't here and things. I then quickly directed my attention back to sweet Sadie and I knew she was watching her sister from above. Sadie was so dainty with the cupcake it was so cute and we all got some laughs in. By the time presents rolled around, Sadie wasn't having it and I decided I will open them later. A few favorite hurts stayed back and I opened theirs. She all seemed overwhelmed with all the toys! I swear you can have thousands of toys and they much rather walk around the house and play with pans and what not! Ha

So Party was a success and it couldn't have been better! I officially have a one year old and I can't believe it!

Sadie is a very loved little girl just as her sister was and is. I also must mention, this ABSOLUTE beautiful beautiful gift I got from a fellow mommy/blogger friend who I have grew close with from a far. She made a photo book of Sadie's first year and sent it to me for her. I cried. It was absolutely amazing. So beautifully put together and I am so glad I will have that to cherish and look back on. Thank you LAURA!! :)
























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I have a .....

ONE YEAR OLD~ OH MY GOD. I honestly cannot believe it. WHERE in the world has the time gone? The phrase "in the blink of an eye" cannot be any truer. I tell you, I put the planning of her birthday party off until the very last minute. Not a very good idea. 1, I really didn't want to think it would come. 2. I am a horrible planner, probably because I have never really planned anything in my life. I would so rather give it up to someone else to do. I am a "go with the flow" type gal. Normally, mothers plan oh MONTHS before, oh say probably at 6 months I am sure ideas start swirling in their head. Me? Ask me my opinion on anything? Shoot I am always like "i dont care, whatever you want." hah I am a very easy going person. YET I SHOULD HAVE SOME SAY IN MY DAUGHTERS LIFE! -aka FIRST birthday!

So the last few weeks or so (2-3) I started gathering ideas of themes and what not. First had decided on a rainbow theme since Sadie after all, is my rainbow. I came across these BEAUTIFUL rainbow cupcakes. Then when looking for ddecorations I thought oh crap its going to be hard to do rainbow. So I changed it to sort of a cupcake theme. But we are still going to do the rainbow cupcakes. I cannot wait! I am actually going over to my best friends house this morning, oh well in about 3.5 hrs from now! We have to make 3 dozen cupcakes! ANd layered! Each layer of the batter will have a different color of the rainbow! My best friend does AMAZING work! I usually watch when she bakes things but THIS, THIS I must help on, its my GIRLIES FIRST BIRTHDAY AFTERALL! I must do something! So I will be going over there this morning for a few hours while my mom and grandma watch miss Sadie girl!

I will have to come back and clean the bathroom (fun I know!) and I still have PARTY bags to get! Yes, very last minute you say. But I have a sort of a budget on this thing. :( I wish I can throw one of those amazing parties that I have come across with all the cute things but I just unfornately cannnot aford that now. Maybe next year! I also have to get these special sprinkles for the cupcakes and a signing autograph thing for memories for her as well AND the balloons! Ah! so much to do and so little time!

I will be having 25-30 people at this party. It will be at my house from 6-8 tonight. I am nervous! Some of my friends I havent seen in so long and lots havent even met Sadie yet! I am wondering how she will react. I know they say to keep the guest list small not to overwhelm her but hopefully she will do okay! I still have yet to know what I am wearing! Luckily the best friend said I can borrow something of hers! I need to update the wardrobe like BADLY!

Anyways, just thought I would throw out a quick post and I will CERTAINLY be writing up a birthday post if not tonight for sure toomorrrow!

I just cannot believe I have a ONE YEAR OLD! I honestly remember being up in the hospital for a week or so this time last year. I remember the shift change. The nurse I had over night comes in with another nurse and told me she had two things to tell me. I cant rememebr what the other thing was but that the other was it was BABY TIME! My labs were changing and with the headache I had all night that wouldnt go away and my other symptoms, my doctor was ready for delivery. I remember crying, tears of joy, excitement, scared, all emotions running hay wire! I remember texting my dear friend Ashley that morning. She was the first one I told. She was so excited and happy for me. I started writing everyone. I was made to be prepped. My mom even happened to be on the upper floor that morning workking and I had to give her a call so she can come to be in the OR with me! She was able to get her shift covered THANK GOD. My mom got all scrubbed up . I remember being wheeled by my doctor and the team of surgeons and what not. I remember passing a newborn baby girl in a little thing they have them in all the time. It all didnt seem real to me. I was brought back into a little room and up on the table I went. I was SO very scared. I started freaking in my mind. I did not want to have the baby. I was scared to go through surgery even tho I had it done 1.5 yr prior to t hat. But I had no choice haha. I remember getting the spinal tap and after that I was shaking so badly. I think also because I was just so scared.

I remember the doctor talking to me briefly and telling me some bits of waht was going on and I heard him talk in spanish to another person and I think mentioned something about me having a previous baby and possibly didnt make it. And well sure enough he told me I was going to start feeling tugging and pressure. Sure enough at 11:00 on the dot. my little girl was BORN! I heard cries, they cleaned her up a little and brought her over to my side so I can see her wrapped up in a blanket. Oh boy, here coems the water works!

I was able to kiss her on her little forehead. She was absoultey beautiful. I rememebr thinking tho, is she really mine? Did I just have her? ALl 4 lb 15 oz of her was mine. A head full of dark dark hair. She was a tiny little thing. She was just precious. My grandmother flew in that next day from Philly and my mom and dad came. She had to stay in the NICU for a day jsut to be watched and I happened to call on her status the next day and they said she will be brought to my room! I gasped! I started freaking. My grandma and mom and dad were all in the room and here my tiny little newborn baby girl was brought to me. I didn't know what to do. I smiled and I laughed and I cried. I remember trying to feed her with a little bottle because my milk had not came in yet. I remember her kind of choking and I freaked and handed her to my mom. Eventually I was able to get the heng of it. After all, I took care of HOW many babies and children before? I should know this! ha. I think I was just scared abnd nervous and so many emotions.

I remember, I didnt have a name 100% picked out for her. I orginally wanted Gracie Faith but when I told my sisiter they made comments and nurses had asked too I said I wasnt sure. I had about a couple hrs to decide. The birth certificate people wanted a name! I was like ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? My dad was holding Sadie and I was looking at her and thought what do I wanna name her? My dad suggested names and then one of them right off the bat was SAdie. I said SADIE!? Ew no, what kind of name was that? But then I started to say it aloud in my head and was looking at her. The more I said it and looked at her, I gasped. I said SHE LOOKS LIKE A SADIE (in my head). He said how about Sadie Marie? He even wrote it down on a napkin, to see what it would look like written out. (I have that napkin in her babybook !) They ended up habing to go home after spending a couple hours with me and helping since I had surgery. I had til 2 o clock that day to send a name down. Well I called my dad and was proud to tell him I decided on Sadie Marie! I remember the first night being alone with her. I remember crying and crying. I could not get over how much she resembled my sweetpea Naomi. They are sisers for sure. I just had no idea they would look so much alike. I knew she was around tho thats for sure.I had so many visitors who were so excited for me and to meet my little girl.

It really feels like yesterday that I brought this little girl home. She is my light she is my world. She is my everything. She keeps me going. HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEET BABY GIRL, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SADIE MARIE! I love you with all my heart and I am so blessed to have gotten to watch and see you grow your first year. The tears, the laughter the joy you bring to me. You complete me. I know youre sweet sister Naomi is having a party up there with her friends for you. She is so proud of her little sister. I cant wait to watch you grow and blossom into the beautiful sweetheart that you are.

I have not forgotten

As today comes to an end, I want to say that I have not forgotten what today is. Today, 10 years ago, as we all know, marks one of the worst days in history. Where were you when word got out? I was at home, "sick" from school, I was in middle school. I remember my dad calling me from work saying to turn on the tv there was a plane that hit some tower. Honestly, I didnt think much of it and I thought, oh that sucks. I eventually turned it on and paid half attention not really knowing what all of it meant. I remember bits and pieces. I rememember my mom coming in from the grocery store with bags, crying. She said "its like a scene from a horror movie". Times 1000.

Last week in school, this woman asked me to help hold up a paper so she can put up with tape. She explained to me that all the 3000+ names of the victims will be written on that paper. Sure enough, they were. I just gasped and teared up. How can one individual do such a thing? I still cant grasp my head around it all. I can't and never will.

My sisters old best friend, used to live across the street. Her mothers ex boyfriend was a 9/11 NYC fire fighter. He survived it all but had to stop working because had very bad smoke inhalation.

The countless of stories I have heard and videos and coverage I have seen. I remember last year I was in the hospital, very pregnant, with Sadie, watching coverage all day of it. It was very emotional. I will never forget. This day 10 years ago has made history. History I so wish we were not apart of.

I am taking a moment of silence for all the victims and their families. Bless you all.

Like REALLY?

First off, let me start off by saying HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY! I hope all of you have had and are having an awesome three day weekend! Today unofficially marks the last day of summer! Not such a bad summer, I'd say! I gained an awesome boyfriend, started school, and got to watch my little one grow into a blossoming beauty, a walking beauty! I couldn't be more thankful and blessed!

It's been a while since I posted! I do still get on and read blogs just suck at commenting and gathering my own thoughts for mine! Did have Sadie's 2nd hospital visit a couple days ago! Let me say I was freaking OUT. It happened around 7:30 at night, we were just freshly showered and dressed and playing on mamas bed before bedtime and I wanna say I turned for a slight second while she was standing on my 2 ft bed, and she took a tumble, grabbed onto the towel with her onto the tile floor! I swooped her up and brought her outside to stop the crying. She wasn't in hysterics but to where it scared her and most likely knocked the wind out of her. After she sopped crying she started breathing weird. I was concerned. I called my mom who was on way from hospital and told her . Then I was on phone with myboyfriend and told him what happened (he's a certified EMT) and well we were supposed to meet up and go study that night. Well as I was talking to him, I had her on my hip and she threw up. That made me worry even more. I told him I'm callingmy mom back told her what happened. She said we'd take her to hospital. I ended up calling emergency 911. Was crying of course and they had paramedics here within 5 mins . I came outside with her and my mom ended up pulling up too. They checked her out she was acting fine then but said to take her just in case. Even two young officers showed up they just were oddly smiling at me didn't ask any questions .but I understood why they had them there. Sure enough whole I was giving info to the paramedics , I look up and here comes my boyfriend. I was surprised yet so happy. I felt better in a sense that he was there. He ended up driving my mom and Sadie and I to the local children's hospital. I sat in back and on the way there she started puking again! I had to quickly unbuckle her carseat and pull her out. Poor thing. I then was like WHY THE HE'LL DID I NOT LET PARAMEDICS TAKE US? so we eventually got there they got us in quick. Back to a room. It felt like just yesterday I was with her there 3 weeks after she was born for another incident that turned out okay . We waited quite some time in a room in ER for The cat scan to be done. Dr had her nothing by mouth just in case. Poor thing was way past her bedtime and was so hungry after throwing up everything. Eventually she was able to eat and that made her better. Had cat scan done and she finally passed out on grandma. We awaited results..everything came back normal! Thank you Jesus. So yes that was a very scary and emotional time. I just kept thinkong I lost Naomi, I CANNOT lose another little girl.

So, main reason I wanted to blog is...venting. I have to get it off my chest. I'm annoyed and mad a bit. So my friend more of an acquaintance from highschool writes me via FB and wants me to call her to keep a secret. I pretty much knew. She's pregnant. She explained to me she's excited yet scared, all normal emotions then starts saying how her "due date" will be around finals and blah blah and who will watch baby when this and that. Ha. She's not a single mother. And well, she was yapping about diaper bags and cribs and yes all things. But she's only 5 weeks. Miscarriage window is 12. And well we all know, well I know all too well that thats not the only thing that can go wrong. Of course I do NOT want that on anyone. But then she starts saying two comments that REALLY nerved me. How she really doesn't want a c section. Oh COME ON. I had two, both were emergency situations the first more than the 2nd and I only have one living child. Take pregnancy day by day. A positive test doesn't mean shit. I'm sorry it doesn't guarantee a baby in your arms. So wish it did. Then the comment that got me the most was "we all want a boy. My whole family and his family want a boy". I got the feeling she just would DIE if she had a girl. Pissed me off. I spoke. For once. I said "how about wanting a healthy pregnancy and safe delivery?". Smh. Come on now! She "knows" in some sense what I went through. Just zippidy zip zip zip your mouth. Ugh.



























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ABC..I AM A STUDENT!

Yes! Its official! I am now a student! I am going for Medical Assisting. It is a 10 month program, if all goes well I will graduate in June! I started my first day of class on Monday.

So far so good. But the damn teacher put the wrong schedule on the paper when we went to register. My mom made her nursing schedule compared to that and took of Tues/Wed/Thurs so when I am in class from 8 to 3:30 she can watch my little Sadie girl. And Monday and Fridays would be online. I come to class the first day and we are doing CORE until September 8 and then that is when Medical Assisting really starts. That schedule will be for that but until then I am not really in class only next Monday and Thursday for lab. But we managed this Monday with my dad watching her part day and my sister the other. We will manage!

Come late November/Early December, I will have clinicals. Monday and Tuesday are clinicals, Wednesday and Thursday in classroom and Friday online! SO I will have a full schedule! This is all new to me since I havent been in school for 4/5 years! Getting back in the grove of learning to study and do assignments! Yikes! but all with an 11 month old who keeps me VERY VERY busy. I dont know how I will do it all but I HAVE NO CHOICE. I want to get out of here SOMEDAY and be able to support myself and my little girl!

So If I am MIA for a bit, that is why. I am officially a student and I couldnt be more happier!

Birthday Extravaganza Plans!!

WHO IS EXCITED TO BE TURNING 24???? THIS MAMA IS!!!!!

Wanna know something extra special? My best friend Bonnie and I share the exact same birthday!!! Both are turning 24! Whoop whoop! We have been best friends for prob just two years now but it feels like we have been forever. I met her in 8th grade. We had the same history class in middle school. We did a project together, went over to her house once to do it and that was it. After that we just remained acquaintances I guess you can say. Saw her in highschool waved said hi type stuff. Come out of highschool, we got reconnected on myspace, I was pregnant with my sweetpea Naomi then. We decided to meet up and went to local bookstore. I then asked her if she felt okay to help me at an appointment of mine since I had both babies-was a nanny at the time. She came and assisted with them at my 28 week apt. Lord let me tell you, she was sent to me at the right time. And well rest is history. Weve been so close ever since. I am truely blessed to have her in my life. She is so genuine, hilarious and has a giving heart. We will be best friends forever!

So, well her parents made reservartions for a very fancy and yummy steak house I hear about a lot from my bestie. They invited me and I was thrilled to be able to go! Never been to a high class type place. She raves about the bread, asparagus and wine! Awesome combo! So I will be joining them and family for dinner!

Then I get a text from my best friend saying she wishes we could go out after dinner-she explained to be her parents like to have leisurely dinners so wed prob be there from 8 to 10:30 or whatever. Which I dont mind. Just got to load up on the wine :) or drinks! I then get a text saying her mom is offering to use her points and get us a hotel!!! So she was able to make reservations for a BEAUTIFUL high class hotel on Ft Lauderdale Beach! WE ARE BOTH BEYOND EXCITED! Cant stop talking about it. So thankfully I have amazing friends who said theyd watch my little misses Sadiekins for me! My friend Kalie babysits her when I go out usually with my bf. So she knows her well and I woild feel comfortable leaving her over night. This will be her first sleepover! Ah!

I will be picked up around 2/3 by my best friend and her brother and we will go check into the hotel and hang out there until dinner time! Then after dinner another friend of ours will be meeting up and the REAL festivites will begin! Drinks drinks and more drinks! Mama has to live it up because I start school that following Monday after my birthday!

I am so excited! This week and month is a busy month and full of fun stuff! I be getting my hair did by an aveda friend coming out to my house Monday morning! Tuesday I have a school apt to finalize financial aid and get books and what not. Wednesday, I will be meeting with a dear friend at the beach. Her sweet son's angelversary of a year is August 17, and instead of being down at home she decided to make a nice day and invite family and friends to beach. I love her .

Then come Saturday is the BIRTHDAY BASH! :) must go shopping for hot outfits!

I will leave you with some pictures..me as a youning! Doesn't Sadie look just like her mama?!? ;)

Happy weekend everyone!























BEYOND EXCITED!!!