Well, I had wanted to blog about this day but then I didn't. Made me sad. June 1, marked 2 years since my sweet Naomi passed away. The night before, I made cupcakes suggested by a BLM friend who I am pretty close with, to bring to NICU nurses. My best friend came with Sadie and I to deliver the cupcakes that afternoon. I am so very glad she did because it would have been a LOT harder walking into that hospital on my own. I gave a hug to the head nicu director and she let me say hi to the nurses who were in the back having lunch. They admired Sadie. And explained to some of the nurses "remember Naomi, she was in the back along that wall?". And gosh, I could PICTURE always walking in straight to her. I didnt look at any other baby but her. It was a quick stay and then we left. The smell and elevators I will never forget. Just was sad going back to the same hospital on the same day two years ago. Only difference was that it was sunny and beautiful this time. Last time, it was pouring rain. Ill never forget, because i remember running out in the pouring rain to the street and just collasping to te ground. I also, had a candle lit for Naomi all day and Sadie and I walked to the lake and I let two balloons go. And I sat there and cried. Naomi Hope, mama loves you and misses you so very much. Not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I see you in your little sister a lot. Please take care of your angel friends up there. Love you sweetpea.
Other things going on: the MIAMI HEAT are in the FINALS! Its funny, how I would have never been a basketball fan had my best friend and her family taken me to a game, VIP status that is! I loved it! And well since theyve been in finals, I have been very fortunate and lucky, to have babysitters, my mom and my sisters to watch her (shes basically sleeping) while mommy would go out with some friends and have a few drinks and watch the game! I love it, its so exciting! I also, had reconnected with that guy. Remember him?! From POF?! I blogged earlier about him! Well we had stopped talking and what not For a few weeks. He wrote me on FB and we exchanged numbers again. The first time i would say i was scared and nervous and made tons of excuses to hang and stuff. But this time around, seems better and I am actually wanting to see him. Well hes came out to a few game watching nights! Yes, mama had a couple drinks and was a bit flirtatious with him. I then began to worry thinking oh what if i only like him when i have had drinks??! Anyone can loosen up and feel good after a few drinks. Well we met up again at the park with Sadie yesterday and it actually went very nice. I found out I am attracted to him. But he does know i have Sadie and I want to include her at times as well as mommy needing her time. He actually wants to take me out on a "date" but a group kinda date tomorrow night, at the local sportsbar to watch the MIAMI HEAT game! He said everything is on him :). He is bringing his friend and another friend of his and i am bringing a friend of mine too. I am excited! Mama even painted her own nails tonight to match my outfit for tmw!
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This picture of my best friend and I was taken before on our way to see the HEAT play on tuesday night! They ended up losing! Boo! The must win this one tomorrrow night to pull a game 7 on Tuesday! Lets go HEAT!
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2 comments:
Angelversaries are always difficult. I admire you for being able to walk back into the NICU. That took a lot of courage. The cupcakes look delicious. It's also nice to see that you are getting out and enjoying life. Hugs.
I'm so proud of you for going to the NICU on Naomi's angelversary. I imagine us running away and escaping this town on Adam's. Glad things are going well in the social front. :) Hugs.
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