I confess...

I connfess: I am well *used* to be a HUGE neat freak. After Naomi passed away, I kind of stopped caring. I didn't do anything really. Which is understandable, right? Well after months, I finaly gave in a little and did things here and there. And Nowadays, its getting back on and worse. BUT EXCUSE ME FOR LIKING A CLEAN HOUSE OR ORGANIZED CABINETS AND EVERYTHING IN ORDER! Okay, yes I am 24, living back at home, and not paying rent, so just because I have always been a helper, without being asked, I ALWAYS do dishes, always do laundary, and try and keep house tidy. But 4 other people live here too you know. They both have arms and legs. A fully capable body to help around the housse. "Family" key word here=help around house too! I wake up and I feed my little girl sometimes me, and then I get to it. I do dishes left over from nightm put dishes away, put in laundary, sweep and mop the floor because I refuse to let Sadie crawl on this dog haired/dandruff floor, GROSS I know. Well its getting old. I have a 13 yr old brother who I told to my mom that he needs to start learning responsiblities. He sits on the computer anx xbox ALL. DAMN. DAY. NO lie. He gets up to use restroom and eat and thats it. His friends will sometimes come over and they play it all too or swim or play basketball then its back on the game. But come on CLEAN UP AFTER YORUSELF. Crumbs and all! Help me out a little! UGH! You see dishes that can be put away? Why not help me for a chance? I am always nice to that kid. I also have been organizing the kitchen cabinet and fridge. BUT THIS FAMILY SOMEHOW UNORANIZES IT! It is pissing me off. Yes I may have some OCD but come on, a CLEAN HOME IS A HAPPY HOME! The first shelp I have baby food, formula, and all cereals. Second I have pasa and what not. Third shelf is baking stuff like flour, sugar, yadayada, the last is misc. And somehow they mess it all up! I dont know about you but I CANT STAND MESSES! THings laying around the house like from my fathers shoes out of place with his socks thrown about, his plate left in his tv area, like COME ON PICK UP AFTER YOURSELF! Things out of place, I just cannot stand clutter. YES with a child and baby that comes with its terrritory I dont mind that as much really, but other stuff, come on. HELP OUT a bit here !? Ugh. Felt better to get that out.

I confess: I listen to Pandora radio on my iphone all day with Sadie. When we are in the house, I just keep it up on the bar stool area and listen to Top Pop Hits. It gets me through the day damn it! Besides, I have found myself a little dancer-aka miss thang Sadie! She really knows how to get down! Haha, and I have NO clue where she gets it from, so not "she got it from her mama" type stuff. Wont see me dancing like that haha, I wish! But yes, I dont know about you, but music always puts me in a good mood, a feel good mood. It helps me RUN, oh boy, does it help! So thanks Pandora, youre awesome! It goes with me everywhere, in the house, in the car, on a run-everywhere! :)

I confess: I am addicted to facebook. Who isn't? I am on that damn thing checking it like its going to go off the face of the earth any minute. I NEED TO BREAK THAT HABIT. Like seriously. I won't die if I dont know what helf of the people I could really care less about are thinking or doing. But yes I agree, its good way to keep up to date with others everyone has busy hectic schedules these days yet we still have time to update and catch up on our friends' lives! I admit I probably wouldnt have talked or reconnected with a few if it wasnt for facebook. I remember I had a MYSPACE back then and shortly after Naomi passed away my sister asked me if she can make me a facebook. I thought, wth? Um no, I already have a 'myspace'. Why have two things of the same? Well I later caved in, and well deleted myspace and now I have this lovely thing. It will have to come to less once I start school in oh let me say less than 2 weeks, AH! I cant be worried about people's "minds" when I have to be worried about studying, getting assignments done and getting good grades. I can do it! I think...;)

I confess: I am obsessed with the lottory, powerball, and scratch offs! I really do not know what got me into it. I guess I am addicted to..losing? I buy those damn scratch offs at least 3/4 times a month. And honestly? I DONT have money for that. You have no idea how b-to the roke I am! Its sad. Yet I just "think" if I keep playing, I am bound to win something. Know that saying? "Gotta be in it to win it?" Like tonight, is the $220 million dollar POWERBALL. I did some research a few days ago, I always would get the machine picked numbers. Well thatm no more. I happened to take the tips from the research and well, I ended up getting the powerball number correct AND a single number. Won $3! haha. Its a start right? Yes I know I have 1 and a gazillion trillion chance of winning, but, YOU GOTTA BE IN IT TO WIN IT! My dad won $6000. Also, had he had $20 on him for a pool at work, he could have won 66 mil or something like that. I told my best friend for this lotto we need a pool going. Someones gotta give! Oh, and I would be the MOST generous person. I told my mom and


she even knows I would. I am a single mom, I need something damn it. Life aint easy, I am making it somehow.

I confess-I love blogging. I have to get better at it tho. I would love to write more but I got a fussy baby, and I think I better attend to her! Until then-ciao!