Mindless Monday

This weekend was my nephew's baptism. I haven't read really on it or do I understand what it is all about, but I should. I don't have much say on it, I am back and forth with the whole religion thing. My mom would like me to take Sadie to church on my own, but I am still unsure. I have been to a few but its hard to put my belief in it all. I really don't know where I stand.

I was raised Catholic but I dont keep going with it. I perfer Christian church over Catholic church. I don't get anything out of Catholic church, I just don't. But, with Christian church, I love the music, the people and I seem to always come in at a time when the "service" is meant for me.

I got ready & got Sadie ready to go and everyone was there. Nice to see other side of family on my sisters side. The priest then began starting and as I realized who it was my eyes just began to FILL up with tears and they soon began pouring down my face. I couldn't stop them. This priest, Father Ed, baptised Naomi. When she was dead. My mom called for him to come that day for her to be baptised. I can't tell you why or what it means but it was sweet of her. I just remembered all of this and I turned around to my dad and said "he baptised Naomi when she died". I was holding Sadie and just hugged her really tight and kissed my necklace.

After that I was able to stop myself and tried to think of other things. My sweet Naomi. Miss my precious girly.

Ther est of the day was pretty nice, went to my sisters house for the after party. There was this pretty little 3 yr old almost 4 in March. I had fun playing with her, she had a very bright pink pretty dress on with black little heels too cute. I was running and chasing her and she kept wanting me to come in the bounce house, I said may look little but I am really not! haha made me laugh but I thought this will be be soon enough chasing my little girl!

Other news, my sister and I went to a baby consignment store to look at a double running stroller, since I will be watching her son a few days a week, and she said she wanted to help me out in any way that I can so she offered to buy it. There were two there so I picked out that one I liked the most. I am SO happy with it. I am down 2 lbs and I feel great, gotta keep it going! I surpringly have been keepingaway from sweets and breads, which was dificult before but I did it! So proud of myself! I would like to lose 10- 15 lbs. Healthy mama is my goal! I am always wanting to use it. I went rollerblading this morning with it and Sadie and I felt AWESOME after. I haven't bladed in SO long and it was just great. I then took Sadie later befoer the sun went down because she was having troubles napping today and I couldn't let her scream so I thought let me take her for a walk and she should fall asleep, sure enough she did! But I can't be taking her for a walk everytime she needs a nappie! Gotta figure out something there! I had a pretty good weekend! Hope you all did too!

Church...

So, tonight, I saw a friend of mine was going to church tonight & didn't want to go alone. I replied to her and she said I should come! So luckily I had an hr, or so to get ready & have miss Sadie be ready and off we went!

I needed to get out of the house and I had been to this church twice before, recently, for Christmas Eve. It is a beautiful church and had a nice service for Christmas I really enjoyed.

I meet up with my friend, from highschool, and she sees baby Sadie. Asked if I was going to put her in the nursery. My first thought and thoughts going through my head was "NO WAY IN HE you know what!". I thought I can't leave her with strangers! But she said go check it out, its only sn hr and it will give me a bit of a break and to enjoy myself. Not that I wouldn't with Sadie, but I prob would have had to go in the baby room, because she does NOT like loud music. I wouldn't either if i were a baby! :D

So I decided to go check it out and I ended up giving her information and they asked how old she was and all marveled at her. I took a peek in the room and two sweet young woman were there with a few toddlers and a few babies. I handed her over and my heart was pounding. I gave her a hug & said "bye bye" and I left. I told my friend omg what did I do!? They asked if I wanted to go in and see but I said no because I knew she would be OKAY, but would mommy!?

The whole service my heart was like pounding, I felt anxious, and my stomach was bothered, I couldn't sit there without being all tensed. I kept wanting to look at my phone to see the time. They also gave me a number and put a number sticker on her. Said if they need me that number will light up on the screen. The WHOLE time I kept my eyes glued on it. I thought, for sure she will be too fussy for them or something may happen. A few times, I almost just got up and walked out and wanted to go and get her. But I told myself to sit still. She will be OKAY.

And sure enough, service ended, and on we went to get her. I was SO excited to see her little face, but worried to see how she did. They said she did well she was a little shaken when being passed to be but she was good and I gave her so many hugs and kisses and told her I missed her and I got a BIG baby Sadie smile that mama just lovesss. :)

Felt great that she was okay and I knew in good hands. Glad to have gone to service as well. Just I think, and worry, that was only 1 hr away from her in someone else's hands I didn't know. The only other times, which was twice, that I left her for a couple hours, was my mom! And I still get anxious but I know she has her and is in good hands! What will I do when I have to start school.either online or out and then start working? oh my. I will have to learn!